My youth

Just watched a movie, Our Times, yesterday with the Boyfriend at JEM.
Cried like shit.

Oh well, it really brings back tons of memories in secondary school though.
Where your worries are just homework/results, CCA results, and of course, BGR.

Back in 2004, I fell in love with the most handsome and notorious boy in my level. Most of the girls had a crush on him. Basketball team, center part hair, love to disturb girls, had the most advance handphone and smuggle it to school.
I am lucky, to have the privilege to be closer to him at a point of time. Him coming my house where there's no one, helped to do something on my phone, played my hamsters, and little moments at 630am in the morning where he would wait for me to go to school together.
Of course such times doesn't last as his attention span is pretty limited. Soon after, he had his own gang of boys and of course his eye candy, another pretty girl in our level.
Slowly, I was out of his life, because I'm just a fat girl who is in the school band.

Fast forward to 2005, I landed at the last class of the level. So naturally, all the suckers will be in the same class. All 26 of us, where other classes had about 40 students.

When I was primary 6, I used to like a boy, sadly, we had to go our separate ways when we are posted to different secondary school. Shockingly, I saw a little boy during my Secondary 1 orientation, a boy who looked similar to my crush!
But alas, he is not him. Just someone similar.

I went to the same secondary 3 class as this boy in 2005. We first chatted on msn because we wanted to send each other the latest chinese hits. This only happened after I hated him in class. Not sure why though.

Soon we were in a clique, together with others. We even have nicknames for each other.
Naturally, with puberty, I fell in love with him.
And we were promoted to the same class in Secondary 4.
As times go by, he had many girlfriends too, but I'm just transparent, a girl best friend next to him.

The one who will do his homework, reminded him about tests/exams, helped him to bring extra stuff for art lessons. Come to think of it, my unconditional love for him was pretty silly.
Just a phone call away, I'm always there. Be it bowling, Singing K, playing pool, or even hanging out at nearest coffee shop. I'm always there for him. But he didn't know I liked him, as I told him I liked the Mr. Popular.

And then, it happened. I chose to confess to him. A Thursday in August 2006, a few weeks before O levels, I chose to go to his house, under his block, sat with him, and confessed.
I cried, a lot. Because I was afraid.
But I did it.
It is pretty funny how he ended up hating me because he felt cheated that he is the last one to know.
LOL. of course lah!
But then again, I hated him because he told me he wanted to be single, but in the end, he went back to his ex 5 days later after I confessed.

Throughout the years, 2007, 2008, 2009, 2010, 2011, 2012, he came in and out of my life when he was out of love. I accepted him graciously, being an old friend and him being my old flame, I still do have soft spot for him.
Here and there, I do fell in love with other guys, but him, just him, being special in my heart.

In 2013, I met the my boyfriend. My first boyfriend.
I discussed with him yesterday, "Do you count yourself as my first love?"
"Probably him bah", he replied.
"I'll guess so, he is my youth." I answered.

Many of you would probably think, why I can't let go. Anyway it has been like 9 years.
Well, many times you can't forget your first time.
First kiss, first time you ate mcdonalds, first visit to the zoo, your first handphone, first day of school, etc.

To me, he is the first guy I confessed to. At the age of 16, I believe I'm old enough to be conscious that I'm in love.
And that point of time, it was my first heartbreak too.

Therefore, the movie Our Times, tugged at the right heartstrings of my youth. And knowing that in some parts of the world, there are girls like me, who will do silly things for the guys they love.

I'm now happily attached to my Mr J. It has been a whirlwind of 2 years, but I'm glad he is in my life right now.
Coincidentally, the guy in my youth is another Mr J. as well.
And he will definitely be in a special place in my mind (not heart), always, as a part of a special memory, till the end of time.





To my dearest best friend,

Happy 25th!

Luckily today is public holiday and you have legit reasons to spend it with your love ones~ hehe.

Thank you for being my friend, my alternative crazy partner.

I do miss our fun times together in work and school, how we are such a great team together in completing LAME assignments.
Miss those crazy times and sadly, we have to grow up.

Although we have our own priorities now, and meeting up would be hard to comply, but I still do keep you in my mind here and then.

I'm super glad that you have Gerald now. Well, he isn't exactly prince charming (neither is Jonathan), but certainly he is the person who eventually melt your ice isn't it?

I'm happy that you're happy. 

Here's to more crazy times and riding roller coaster till our boobs sags.

Happy Birthday my dearest friend. 


30 more days

Today is the 11th month that we've been together.

I am amazed how time flies.

How quickly everything evolves.

I used to dread every day. Thinking what am doing with all these random people in my life.

And now, my life has a purpose.

All the evil deeds he had done in the past, I believe in giving chances.

The man, standing before me, the man, who sleep by my side every day, the man who kisses me in the morning, before work and when he came home, most importantly, the man who love me.

I have never imagined to be love. After all the things that happened in the past 23 years, I thought that I have really no hope in getting valued by someone.

And here I am, in the arms of a little man, who have gave me so much strength, he who complete me.

Looking around my room, there are traces of him. Towels, shirts, pants, shavers, the cards that we played, the Wii game that he set up, our shared mug, our incomplete puzzle, his pillow, our blanket....

He is part of my life now, part of my family now. These 11 months, I have used 8 months to integrate him into my life, 8 months to know who is truly is.

I realised I really love him. And at this point of time, at the age of 24, I want to spend my life with him.

I love you baby. Ok?



Time really flies. Soon it is gonna be March.

I realised, happy times are always spent the fastest. These have been the happiest 5 months of my life. I am very very grateful.

I was watching Beauty and the Beast today on my phone. And I am falling in love with it all over again. Best still, I could totally relate to it.

Well, I am not saying that I am Belle, the beauty. But I picture myself as her. A normal girl who every deems as abnormal. And the Beast, well, my boyfriend isn't that huge enough to be a beast. But I believe every man has a secret that he doesn't want to show his woman.

These 5 months were sort of like a 'knowing' phase for me and Jon. I am glad that certain things happened that strengthened our trust and love.

Jon is someone that I've never imagined I would met.

He met me at my lowest. When I was at the brink of giving up hope for love. Initially, I wasn't carrying too much hope when I was dating him. Then, his actions and words touched me. Gave me assurance and hence, I caved in.

He will send me to work if he can.
He will put me as priority.
He cares.
He bothers.
He cooks for me.
He did a lot...

I never never imagined that I will celebrate Valentine's Day. And yes, this year I did. I finally fucking did.

He is awesome. We are awesome. Many more moments to spend together. He will be my first and last man. (:

Our first date at Chinese Garden on Mid-Autumn Festival 2013

 Usual midnight chatting spot around my block

First JB Trip together

 First Movie date

First ECP Sun-date

 Brought  him to my favourite Starbucks store

First bowling session at Marina when he showed me his school bowling captain skills.

First Wedding dinner together

First time I introduced him to my family officially during Mom's birthday in December.

Our corner in my room.

He asked the balloon artist to make this flower for me during New Year's Eve.

Spending New Year's Eve.

Birdpark date

Celebrating Chinese New Year together

Celebrate his birthday on the 13th Feb 

The 26th old man

Our first Valentine together 

He managed to get free Singapore Flyer tickets

Happy 5th Month <3 nbsp="" p="">


He who loves me.

Today, 6/1/14 is the first day that we didn't meet each other ever since we met each other in September 2013.

Since we live near to each other, we will make an effort to meet everyday! 

Today, he work from 7am to 6pm OT & I work from 9am to 11:30pm OT. 
As he have morning shift again tomorrow which needed him to wake up at 5am, it is impossible for us to meet today.

We decided that if I managed to end work earlier, we would meet at Teh Tarik for supper at probably 10pm+. Alas, I work till ungodly hour, 11:30pm. I can't ask my man to sleep for only 4 hours right? 

Me, being a sad puss and all. Was super super sad that I didn't get my daily dose of love. I did call & text him that I was home safe & he was all drowsy on the phone already.

But then, I received a call from him, wanting to Facetime me. (⌒▽⌒) 

I don't mind! It was such a pleasant surprise hehe. 

Was asking him why don't sleep & he said because he knows I would want to see him. Technology rocks sometimes. 

This shows that he loves me, right?

Last time, it is always I'm the one who will do such things to the man I love. There is no reciprocation. It is really a blessing to meet Jon, & I truly truly will treasure this man.

I love you, J! ^^ 


Saturdate at the bird park :)

So,  the man will have free entry to the bird park & so, we went there today since it is his off day! 

Had brunch at Hilltop restaurant. The salmon don was not bad :) You certainly need a car to get to that place. Man, I didn't know Jurong hill was so high! Haha. 

& so it was feeding time at 2:30pm. The man was so excited on feeding the birds but he didn't expect that the feed is actually MEALWORMS. So, he is terrified & I was the one feeding instead. 
I've got training in Science Centre before & I see & touch mealworms everyday. Hahahaha. 



It's 2014, I think it is time I shall do a photolog & update my blog diligently. Hehe. 

Upgraded my bed headstand :)

Finally took photo with Mr Teng days before he fly to UK for his studies. Life sure has its way around huh. After so much trauma from 2008-2010, we are great buddies now :) 

Welcomed a little one to the Maternal family. Baby Leonidas. He looks like he is about to sneeze. Haha! Can't imagine in a few months time, my house is gonna have an infant wailing soon. (T_T)

Count down to 2014 with the man & his colleagues at his hotel :) 
Woke up to a scrumptious brunch prepared by his momma. Hehe.

Decided to eat clean for the first working day of 2014.

Hi handsome. :) 

Idiotic face.


Did my nails lazily..... Haha. 

Well that's it!