Take my wings and fly away

well, it took me awhile to realised that i'm actually all alone.
no, stop telling me you are there for me when you are actually isn't.

You = General

you have eating friends. When we said we are a group together, and when you are free, who you always ask out? Keep saying that you miss me, are you sure not? Only when the other was with someone else, or busy, than you think of me right? Than you call me at night to chat right? Keep saying we are close with you don't even bother reading my blog. Thanks hor.

you said that I was awesome and stuffs, we should be hanging out and stuffs. But after 3 weeks, just that 3 weeks. You are just aiming at my photography skills. Im not a tool, I don't take pictures ON COMMAND. I take of my own wishes. You look ugly in my lenses. Sorry, luckily I took myself out of this shit before any worst things can happened.

you said we were old friends, I'm one of the woman in the world that knew you best. But why you only find me when you NEED me? A friend in NEED is a friend INDEED huh? Well, you can go eff the little sluts that you once had lah hor... I'm no little kiddo okay. Please return me what you should 2 weeks back instead of spending it on clubbing.

you said that you won't be this or that. But once i knew that you are one of it. I sterotyped you, trying to prove it wrong and yes you are. I'm just someone passingby and occupying that space once you find someone new and can occupies your time. Where are all the smses and stuffs? Movies leh? Starbucks leh? Hanging out leh? Oh, yah, true, can't possibly be me now right. So, I don't even have the rights to rant to you when I wanna to right? So, I have to be here for you to solve your situation lah is it? I don't care whether it is your own orientation or what. But, sincerely, it won't really last. And not like you don't know it. Not like you can't resist it, it is just that you don't wish to feel lonely. Admit it.

you only find me when there isn't anyone to look for. When everyone isn't free. When there is anyone around that will answer your calls immediately when you dial 968380**. It is just so freaking obvious everytime you call me at the very last minute. You think I will be glad that when you are doing your 2-cents worth of bonding time huh? sorry lor im not.


you only rant to me when you wanted. I'm always there for you and such. and what did you do to me then? I don't even have a say in my things. I have to be extra careful with my words which I don't even know why am i so concern about it.


Seriously, people, if that's the way you wanna torture me right, go ahead.
Go with your besties, Go with your own groupies, Go with your boyfriends and girlfriends.
Leave a life of your own then. Wouldn't it be best when you don't even have to spend an extra effort to think, " OH YAH, there is still Miranda " in your freaking life.

Why bother? Like seriously? haha.






better off alone.
coughing my life out.